I have been trying to think of how to write this post for two days. You see, on Tuesday, Liam and I got to deliver the coats that we had been raising money for. Selling these necklaces, which you all embraced and blessed us by buying.
We got there, to the after school program, carrying these bags of 20 coats and it was supposed to be a joyful thing. You all allowed our family to bless 20 children with warm coats for the winter.... and yet, I had a heavy heart. But I continued on in, dropped off the coats, shared hugs, and then Liam and I were on our way.
As we pulled out of the parking lot, I started praying. Praying for the 20 children that would have these coats. I didn't know exactly which child would receive each coat, but I knew God did... so I prayed for them. I prayed that they would be proud of their new coat, that it would be something that they would have chose for themselves. I prayed that they would see that there is kindness in the world, and there would be others to lend a hand up in life if you needed it. I prayed that maybe the kindness would spread, and that they would bless someone else too.
I prayed and I prayed as I drove..... it was about 20 minutes into my praying that I thought about something that took my breath away. While I was praying for these 20 children with new coats, I knew why my heart was so heavy. I also had 20 other children on my mind right then.....
What happened in Newton, CT on Friday shook me to my core. I still can't seem to wrap my head around what happened that day. I remember hearing about it, and knew that if I turned the TV on, I would see images that would break my heart. I didn't turn the TV on, I just started praying.
To know that the lives of the students, faculty and families involved in that day would be changed forever, is just almost too much to think about. Because as a momma to three beautiful babies, I can't imagine a single day without them.
But what I do know is that there is still good in the world.
Gandhi said it best with this quote,
"Be the change you wish to see in the world"
Those words resonate with me...
So, if I want the world to be a more kind place, I, myself, must be more kind.
If I want the world to be more understanding of differences, then I, myself, must be more understanding.
If I want the world to be more giving, then I, myself, must be more giving.
See where I am going with this?
What our family was able to do on Tuesday, thanks to you all, was pass on a little goodness that is in this world. Plant a small seed of kindness.... and for that I am truly grateful.
I can think of no better way to pay tribute to those innocent lives lost than to continue to teach my own children that we are blessed beyond the "things" in our lives. We have each other.
Thank you all for giving us the opportunity to give back.